Before the Lord showed me all the things that I depended on to feel good about myself, I would have said that my value was in Christ, I would have thought that He alone gave me worth. My life, however, was lived completely opposite to that truth. I now understand the difference and it has revolutionized my life!
The difference, I believe, can be summarized in the concept of one word: fluctuation.
Fluctuate: uncertain change, up and down or back and forth; change that is unpredictable and unexpected.
The kind of uncertain change that happens when you walk on little grains of sand.
Value that comes from my flesh always fluctuates.
When I felt value by being heard, I talked, people listened, my value went up. When people stopped listening, my value went down, it fluctuated. If someone disagreed with me, I felt value slipping away and in desperation I would argue defensively to hold on to my value. When someone else got praise, I wanted to diminish the value of their accomplishment. Why? Because their increase in value meant a decrease in mine. I felt cheated and only by creating an equality in value could I restore fair balance to my world. My value was in a constant state of fluctuation all day, every day, and all the while I entertained the delusion that I found my value in Christ alone!
What a farce!
Like the swing of a pendulum, my value in the flesh is enhanced or threatened by outside forces, by the words and actions of others.
In contrast, my value in Christ exists on its own, unchanged, rock solid.
How can you know whether you are placing your value in Christ or not? How can you pinpoint those little or big fluctuations in your value? Do you ever wish you could truly live your life in Christ, free from constant insecurity?
Ask the Spirit to show you where your value is coming from.
Consider these questions to identify how and why your value fluctuates.
Does your sense of worth get hungry?
Does it depend on your actions or the reactions of others?
Is it influenced to go up or go down by what others do or say?
Do you find yourself choosing behavior that will gain more attention to your worth?
Do you need to justify your behavior so that others will not get the “wrong idea” about you?
It is Rock solid!
Never changing!
Totally independent of anything you can do!
I'm sure we can all answer "yes" to one of these questions! Good thoughts to think on.
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